Jan 242012
 

there are no maybes
and there are no yesterdays
there is only a faint glint of the evening
as day passes into night
the birds chirp
the worms dig deeper into their holes

the frosty air
as it is carried through the sky
by the winds to the east and over the oceans

trickery on the feet of apes
they dance madly in the halls
expecting their just rewards

it never comes
it never comes

Jan 172012
 

There was a glass
and there was a drill
I used the drill to drill a hole in the glass
when I pulled out the drill
that I used to drill the hole in the glass with
out of the glass
water came out of the glass
from the hole in the glass
that I drilled

You may not understand this
this maybe above your concept of thinking
but the question remains…

Why are you touching me?

Jan 072012
 

soup side instant coffee dreams
silly little dots on the
orange peel of the
growing tangerine

no thought that compresses
a single tear does help
sometimes

a little black wave of magic
turtle scale village inside the brain
does not do
a goddamn thing

no one ever told me the source of all of it
so I had to make it up as I went along
and now I know what it feels like
to be inside the mountain with the stone
and the weight of it is pushing me further
into
the tiny little cracks

forming in my head I think
maybe I should just shut up sometimes
and think about what I should say
but instead I let it all out
and the compression instant coffee
tells me to lay down

in a field of dirt I grow so green
if I could find the answer
maybe
I could
escape all of the troubles
I have found

little likes and fusions of words
make no sense when you are
slipping down a hill
made of yourself

so the single tear that falls from your eye
tells you not to look up into the sky

and you look up anyways
only to find out that the entire thing
was made up
in your
own
head

Jan 032012
 

enter
space
back
space
tab
lock

onto the fledging blue I stroke
and into the bulging purple I choke
on the sand that is in my throat

shift and shine
as I try to find
the reason for the reason
but there is no one to talk to
here

I sit on the beach and watch the sun go down
and wonder

enter into the space
step back into the space
then lock yourself into the space
it is shimmering inside of your skull

brain damage instant foil
pockets of must
into the captured frown
and I think maybe
I ran out of steam

but I keep going on
and on

all about nothing
looking for the reason
and that purple sight
that maybe will be
repeated

so as I walk
down this road full of concrete
I slow down just a bit
to overlook the statue of man

Dec 272011
 

just rearranged it a little
put a piece over there instead
pass up the middle
concentrate on the edges
you’ll get it eventually
have faith my dear boy

don’t worry about it
everything will work out in the end
greatness awaits just beyond the fourth door
lock picking is an asset in this world
cheat to win
win to lose
a past made up of abuse
can be forgiven in just one use
of this little book inside this box

now pass it all up
a view from the shoulder
and a look ahead
a broken back
is a small price to pay
eventually though
you can make it work
you can break those cuffs
and glance
at a bright new day
you dream

just rearrange it a little
put a piece over there instead
pass up the middle
concentrate on the edges
greatness awaits just beyond the fourth door
have faith my dear boy
everything will work out in the end

Dec 162011
 

a dream one may pursue
a hope one might have
a purpose one wants
a realization that all is lost

in the folds of hyper context and ruin
a small spark starts up
an enormous rain
that pours from the ground
and drowns
the surface

reading too much into it
one gets lost in the waves
waiting for hope
waiting for nothing

standing like a statue will get you
nowhere
while searching and searching
will get you
a little farther
and running like a madman will get you
round around circle

pacing events twofold in a cellular construct
opening the doors and not letting them shut
walking through
and not looking back
striding with confidence
full of known knowledge
breathing calmly
staring into eyes
not flinching at the fires
speaking what needs to be spoken
but only when necessary
no fault
no doubt
forever in debt
to no one

dream on, oh dreamer of worlds
dreamer of futures
dreamer of dreams yet to be dreamt

know that there is hope
there is purpose
all is not lost
as long as you do not let it slip
away

Dec 102011
 

slowly opening up a suture
blinking on the side of a wall
denouncing truths and mysticism in the same breath
we weave
in and out
dodging all obstacles
beat
rush
panic

yawning at the cavern
covered in grease and memories
gorgeous prospects await
salivating
panting
pushing open a sliding glass door
a knock at the window
a crack
sliver of anxiousness rattles the skeleton
brain quiver

oxidized lungs filling
with left over remarks and turmoil
bated breath halted for an instant
a creak
a squeak
operation cavity has begun

uprisings all over the skull
hammering away
vision numbs the surroundings
antique rhetoric blossoms latched onto fossils long forgotten by all nature
precursor to abandonment
leaves whither
flakes catching the wind
ash
floating
optic nerve twitch
freefalling space illuminates plastic spaces
under better circumstances
fluttering
flapping

down gulch evenings spike
into horizons lost
blanketing forest thoughts
attracting nameless entities
with no ties to emotion
anger
frustration
hollowed into trees
burrowing nests
take a deep breath
and relax

Dec 062011
 

a redemption withered away in the night sky
giving way to the dawn break
a splash of red orange
shadowing the dawn break
into this you try so hard to see
what it is that you want to change
but the more you try
the more you try
the more you want to give up

but wait
there is more
just beyond
what you are looking at
you see in the distance
a white light shrouded
just around a corner
and you run towards it

a false spectrum of memory
you crash into yourself
then you awake in a place of mammoth possibilities
but with all of that potential at your finger tips
you throw it all away
for instant gratification

you stumble down a rose hill
and fall ever so hard into a bush of thorns
the blood trickles down your face
what is this crown you have worn
upon your brow
are you divine now
have you ascended
are you going to save us all
from ourselves

how can you posturize
the false king of humanity
will you guide us into the light
or push us back into obscurity
are your intentions true
have you forgotten your own sins
maybe it is us
who should forgive you

but you don’t care as you run along
shouting revelations to all who will listen
and your congregation follows you
whispered untruths fill your cup
and you laugh along with the hymns
and praise yourself
with a scratched throat

but are you him
are you even you
do you know what this means
what are you trying to prove
with your fake accent
and fake miracles
your stupid face is covered in words of blood
anyone who can read knows what you really are

lost

in your own fading momentum

passing through moments of time
cementing yourself for the fall
of a lifetime
you don’t know your own setup
but you play the role well
and soon it will come to pass
and soon it shall be
one day you will look up
and you shall see

a void of uncompromising light
sucking you in
then spitting you out
as you fall

                you will know

just what you have wasted
but it will be too late
for you
  for me
    for us all

Dec 042011
 

pickup sticks in a basket
hollowed out trees lost
through mists
revelation salvation
in a bright dot
dead ahead

turn around and sit down
focus on the future
an art dropped from the sky
echoes throughout your ears
a bulb flashed inconsistent
a blanketing darkness
overwhelmed

twigs scratch the surface
a screeching  momentum
an influx of emotional energy
surges electrical systems
a pale light from the surface
a shadow cast fraction
movement just beyond sight
a startling observation

turn to see a whisper
an apparition smiled
vaporous culled through imagination
a mind searching for a pattern
unfocused and indecisive
your eyes shatter

a moon rests behind thick clouds
a lurking shadow prowls the forest
lightning illuminates an ominous mansion
shrieks and howls pierce the cold air
you shiver away
and with a precarious step
you walk into the night

Nov 202011
 

and the core exploded with an intense sound that echoed
throughout the entire sphere
and no one ever knew why
just why
the explosion took place
as they ran and skittered across the surface
and lost themselves in the fires

but there was no real reason
it just had to happen
that was the will of it all
for this to hurt and pain forgiven and suffering forgotten nevermore

so they lapsed into a non-reason mentality and lost themselves in the shovel
and the pail and the oceans were no help for the fire burned high
walking down the river bank was safe
until the water boiled their skin off
what then shall be done as the precursor spoke to the ones who were labeled insane
such a little desire to be free
shackled to a wall of flame
but so what
what of it
and where was the end at
where was the rain at now

the clouds left the place and the sun was choked by the smoke
oh no
they all wandered in the almost darkness
not quite because the fire illuminated
it was a full fledged apparition of truths that they did not want to believe
so they ignored it and got lost in the flame

passing through into an ingenious apparition of an apparatus
they got lost once more in the truth
oh so far from them was it all
lost in the silky waves of flame

so what was left for them to do
but to pass on through
and never learn anything
and repeat it again and again
over and over they went though
and over and over they learned nothing
so their skin was charred
so what?
they didn’t care

and soon nothing but a pile of charred bones remained
and they never knew why
they never questioned enough
so now they were just lost
and never could find the correct path
and the super digestible madness of spring accustomed to the falling rains left them wanting
so they cried
but no tears came
not a single tear

and the little black charred remains were built up into a house for the soothsayers to revel in madness
so they build it up over the smoke
up to the sun
only to have it tumble down on them
as they looked up
up further into the sky
for a reason why
forsaken as they were
why they were left
here on this world
but all that came was a quake
they all fell
it toppled down
crushed in the remains
breath taken away
for those who were left
all they could do was cry
but no tears came
not a single tear